evidently nothing will get done

as serious as i am at times about scholastic endeavors i am still capable of slacking tremendously. it's comforting in a way. procrastination was the name of the game in college and i was the referee. since beginning seminary i have placed far too much self-worth in grades, even to the point of borderline obsession. so, it's comforting to finally lack motivation. i am currently sitting in my new coffee digs, eurotazza. it's everything a coffee shop aficionado could request; good coffee, free wi-fi, interesting music, nice atmosphere, friendly people, and adequate lighting. i brought all the material i have so far accumulated for my research paper and nothing else but this here laptop. thank goodness i remembered the laptop. i didn't bring any leisure reading because i was planning to be serious, no non-sense. now that i'm here i wish i had brought my book. it's really, really good. at least i have diversion in the laptop and free wi-fi.

is anyone else incapable of surfing the web? i can't do it. after checking my email, friend's blogs, and then facebook, i just stare at the screen thinking of the five other sites i know, and debate over whether or not i should check on them. the problem is that everything else i'm interested in involves spending money or traveling. you can probably relate. since i have no money and thus am incapable of traveling or purchasing frivolously, staring at those things would really only end in discontentment. so i'm at a loss.

it's spring break. by default everything is reset to great because spring break it is and living it up i am. there lies the catalyst to de-motivation, or maybe it's the de-catalyst to motivation. dr. taylor actually expects me to spend my spring break in the library with my nose in old creaky books? believe me, i will dive into any old, creaky book outside of vacation with the greatest of enthusiasm any nerd could muster for obscure theologians, but far be it from me to sacrifice this much needed chill time for one paper.

i was in barnes and noble the other day and for the first time ever ventured into the journal section. it occured to me that i've never had to purchase a journal of my own, they've always been given to me as gifts. my friends must feel very strongly about journaling. there were a couple of really cool journals. the most coolest of the coolest was a 100% hemp journal. it was so earthy and like, bio-degradable. eco-friendly journaling seemed to me, on the surface, to be a great idea. i mean, how uber-trend would that be? journaling and being environmentally conscious simultaneously. how about journaling about being environmentally conscious in your hemp, environmentally friendly journal, on the side of a mountain!? i think i would spontaneously combust into all natural, additive-free, carbon ash. but seriously, wouldn't you want your journal to be as impervious to degradation as possible? shouldn't it be made out of plastic or some other fully artificial material? let's say you leave it outside under your favorite tree for a few days; if it's made of semi-bio-degradable paper it could easily be destroyed by the environment and there go all your cherished thoughts and dreams. how much more so with a 100% bio-degradable journal? you can't let the environment take your dreams. that's why they should be made of styrofoam or some other environmentally indestructable substance, like aerosol.